Wednesday, January 5, 2022

Marie Calloway's WHAT PURPOSE DID I SERVE IN YOUR LIFE: Age-Gap Virgin Sex & Young Prostitution

Lena Dunham has been a reliable source for examples of nympholepsy in pop culture; thus, my nympholepsy radar went off when I read Dunham's tweet about Marie Calloway: "Her prose is crisp/subject matter titillating! 4 stars."  

Let's take a look at Calloway's titillating subject matter in what purpose did i serve you in your life - Calloway's biographical fiction\autofiction "novel'

In the first chapter, "portald, oregon 2008", Calloway described losing "her" 18-year-old virginity. Even though she "[...] had been watching pornography regularly since elementary school [...] ", she thought her first time having sex would be different:
“It hurt a lot. He was fucking me really hard and fast (later he would admit he was incredibly excited to be having sex with an 18 year old), but somehow I loved the feeling and thought things like, “It hurts, but it hurts so good…” 

Subsequently, the "gorgeous blond" man asked her to leave, because he didn't want his friends to know that he was having sex with an 18-year-old:

“He said his friend was on his way over and I had to get going right away, because to be honest he didn’t want his friends to start gossiping about how he was sleeping with an 18 year old.”

Wait, did I mention that the man was a stranger: 

“I didn’t know if I wanted to see him again. It didn’t go with the idea I had in my head of losing my virginity to a stranger and then never seeing him again.”

However, within 48 hours, she emailed him for sex: 

“I emailed him two days later: “Let’s sleep together again.”
“Monday night? 10pm? CoffeeTime?”

The next chapter is titled "sex work experience one". In the chapter, she made 200 pounds for having sex with a stuffy, bald and "two pump chump" middle-aged banker. 

The rest of the book is littered with graphic age-gap sex and peppered with her reasons for becoming a[n] (age-gap) prostitute, which are revealing  - yet not surprising:

I just want lots and lots of money and expensive things so I don’t ever have to be afraid of what’s going to happen to me again, no matter what I have to do to get it. 

I thought his cock tasted and smelled sweaty, but I thought of all the sushi and margaritas I would be able to buy after this and kept going.

I need money for BareMinerals foundation and MAC lipstick and soy lattes and pizza. If I earn money I will no longer be a financial burden on my parents; I will be productive and accomplish something. I will be a commodity, and I will be in demand and valuable. I am so beautiful and young that men will pay three hundred dollars to have sex with me; sex work will reify my youth and beauty.

Thus, unlike some young prostitutes who are forced into sex work (e.g., actress Demi Moore),, Calloway's character is like some of the Roman and Japanese teen prostitutes whom do it for luxury goods.  

And lastly, as for some age-gap relationship quotes:

His response felt awkward, and I wondered if he felt weird about me being so much younger than him, rather than excited like I had expected and hoped for.

The bartender asked to see our IDs. I wondered if we looked weird to him, or if it was typical for girls to go to bars with men twice their age in New York.

I felt like a lot of people were giving us dirty looks. I couldn’t tell if it was for smoking or for him being twice my age.

[…] I was actually trying to explore my reverse Lolita complex with him [...] 

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